Sunday, August 26
One of the questions they asked were: Describe yourself.
I got stunned. And stumped. Such a simple question. yet, i cant answer it. I had absolutely no idea what to say. At that point of time, only negative words came to my mine. I was shocked at how I had always been seeing myself in the negative light all the time, so much so that I had never stopped to think about what qualities I could actually have. Even if I manage to tell others my qualities, its often said in such a joking and light hearted manner that I never believed it to be true, just something i had made up to entertain others.
I wish I had a little more self confidence in myself. Every time I get scolded, or scoffed at, a part of me shatters. I wonder how long I'll last before my entire soul shatters into a million and one pieces. I also wonder how long I can put up my pretense as a strong and independent person? Sigh. Which is why I never join sports. Not because i think i cannot take the sufferings when you go for trainings. Its because of the fact that coaches scold very terribly. And that is what I really and truly fear. I get so affected by others that I'm surprised I had actually lived all the way until now.
MMMM oh cripes. I can't believe this. I AM STILL BLOGGING WHEN MY PROMOS ARE LIKE ONLY A FEW WEEKS AWAY AND THE STUFFS WHICH I HAVE TO COVER IS ALMOST EQUIVILENT TO O LEVS??
why dun i have any sense of urgency at all????????
I dun even feel worried now.
Can you believe it?
I haven even started...
yet i think there's still a lot of time.
Great.
Please, god, send me a sense of urgency. I don't care what method you use. Best is through...
OMG. god, you heard me? I didnt mean making me feel faint though. Alright alright, I'll go off.
(ps, wish me luck for promos)
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