Even though exams ended so long ago, i still want to give out a huge exclaimation of happiness. but come to think of it, i don't exactly feel immensely happy after the exams ended. Just a little relief-thats about all. The first day of the exams free days was hysterical. i just keep laughing to myself like an idiotic fool. then slowly all the excitement drained away and i began to wander around aimlessly...
Gone were those hectic schedules whereby every single minute of the day was spent on studying and worrying about the exams. Now its seems kind of boring...too alien for me..
Never mind i shall get used to it i hope.
Sad to say, i have to tutor my sister everyday. Maths. My apparently strongest subject(and also not say very strong). Once upon a time i thought, giving tuition was the most interesting thing one could do. Now, experience has made me a wiser girl and i learnt that giving tuition could 1) Increase your blood pressure, causing tightness in the chest and breathing problems 2) Make you wonder where all that IQ of your intelligent sister (when she bickers with you and comes up with quick thinking responses) had gone to. Was she purposely pretending not to be serious so that she could make me infuriated and die early? I should have known she wouldnt agree to tuition without a motive in mind. 3) make you receive enlightenment and realise the nobleness of all teachers in the world who have once taught me so patiently and not once shown exasperation towards my slowness. Patient is that one thing which i do not possess when i face that impish sister of mine.
Anyway, i cant believe how fast time flies. Just next year i'd be wandering in this whole new environment in this faraway place... wonder if i can get into the school of my choice. And more importantly, STAY inside there and not get kicked out. Everyone i spoke to said, "Sure can one" but that im not exactly very sure. Come to think of it, i actually feel that prelims was better...even though ppl say Os is easier. I guess i differ in that sense.
i guess i'd really miss st nicks after leaving. After all, how could i not? It has been my second home for 10 years. Even a cold hearted human would at least develop some feelings for it. but at least i know i'd come back to visit, since my sister is still studying in it.
Jeez...ran out of things to blog about.
Sometimes i start to wonder, why do people remember some things but forget other things. Is it just coincidence? Or is it fate? Or maybe its simply what the person wants to remember. Maybe somewhere inside our brain, we actually select stuffs which we want to remember and delete away other stuffs. Then again, if we can actually choose what we want to remember, then why can't i seem to remember all the bio notes i frantically tried to remember the night before? Could it be a matter of self confidence. For example, you are confident that you'd remember so you really do, because your brain picks it out for you. But when nervous or frightened, everything just shuts itself out. Because you think you cant do it. Well well, mentallity is clearly a very important part of our lives i guess.
Just finished watching Garo not long ago. And i don't understand how and why i can feel so sad that it ended. After all, its just a show..isnt it? Yet some shows i can actually feel nothing when it ends, eg Goong. And Garo is just about a golden knight killing Horrors...
urgh..im simply dying of boredom.
haha, suddenly all the nice songs are aired on the radio.
you know, sometimes i wonder (i guess i wonder about a lot of stuffs) what other ppl think of me. Am i a hypocrite in their eyes? Or a nice friendly person? Or simply an invisible friend who appears every now and then...or an irritating childish kid. Maybe an ultra superficial girl? Am i intelligent, shrewd, crazy, boring, weird, funny, inconsiderate, cheerful, pessimistic, egoistic, reponsible, tactless or what? Which one of the above suits me most? Or something else? hmmm...ppl who read this, tag a word to describe me? good or bad, its fine with me. You can don't leave a name too... haha..Must be what you truely think...
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why do i care so much about what other ppl think anyway? I'm living for myself not for others.
hHahaa...tmr is prom and i have no idea where to go, wad time and wad to do... how screwed can i get? im a thoroughly last minute person.
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The Princess
Name:Abeline/Shinzo Abe/Maggie/abalone/da mee/xiao mee/abby/Xiao bao/Si mao
age:17! No longer sweet 16:(
sch:NJC
horoscope:Aries!
