Teacher's Day today! I wanted to go back to SN but my dear old xiao mei told me last night that got power failure and no school. Then i heard zl say might be because there's a fire?? Hmmmm....
Daddy, happy teacher's day!!
okay, random a bit.
Anw, we were supposed to do some ACES day workout but i thought it made us look really silly. I guess we could have simply stayed and act high and all and had more fun, but the mood wasn't right. So we(me, sherf nana yihui wanling boon) went to this random classroom to decorate teacher's day stuffs and shun bian chat a bit. Through out the whole celebration(we were joined by kejia, yiwen,cheryl, mayqi, jessica, yini....), we stayed in that class room and enjoyed each other's company.
Later on i went over to hwa chong to meet zl, munz and xinhui. realised that I haven been there for ages already. I forgot how windy the canteen was. We waited a terribly terribly looooong time for the bus to town, since almost every bus was packed like sardines. Finally we got there and had lunch in the form of egg and cheese noodle thingy.
Then went to watch Hairspray, but before that we kinda slacked around. Went to this place to sit down and eat a bit and then play cards. Munz commented on how some girl's skirt was so short that we could actually see her underwear from there....hahaa
I thought hairspray was kinda....sian? I dun like to hear them keep singing. hahaha and that main char tracey is...unique. The only perk was that Zac effron is cute. Lol.
yawnsssss tired liao...shall go do some pw stuffs before i retire to bed.
Oh damn. Today no studying is done again! Urghhhhhhh i really dun see how i can get promoted AND keep my 4 H2s....
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9:13 PM
Sunday, August 26
One of the questions they asked were: Describe yourself.
I got stunned. And stumped. Such a simple question. yet, i cant answer it. I had absolutely no idea what to say. At that point of time, only negative words came to my mine. I was shocked at how I had always been seeing myself in the negative light all the time, so much so that I had never stopped to think about what qualities I could actually have. Even if I manage to tell others my qualities, its often said in such a joking and light hearted manner that I never believed it to be true, just something i had made up to entertain others.
I wish I had a little more self confidence in myself. Every time I get scolded, or scoffed at, a part of me shatters. I wonder how long I'll last before my entire soul shatters into a million and one pieces. I also wonder how long I can put up my pretense as a strong and independent person? Sigh. Which is why I never join sports. Not because i think i cannot take the sufferings when you go for trainings. Its because of the fact that coaches scold very terribly. And that is what I really and truly fear. I get so affected by others that I'm surprised I had actually lived all the way until now.
MMMM oh cripes. I can't believe this. I AM STILL BLOGGING WHEN MY PROMOS ARE LIKE ONLY A FEW WEEKS AWAY AND THE STUFFS WHICH I HAVE TO COVER IS ALMOST EQUIVILENT TO O LEVS??
why dun i have any sense of urgency at all????????
I dun even feel worried now.
Can you believe it?
I haven even started...
yet i think there's still a lot of time.
Great.
Please, god, send me a sense of urgency. I don't care what method you use. Best is through...
OMG. god, you heard me? I didnt mean making me feel faint though. Alright alright, I'll go off.
(ps, wish me luck for promos)
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11:02 PM
hmmm so fast, sunday liao. there're just so many things to do and so many things left undone...
Friday was open house. it made NJ look like a suspiciously fun place. I had to go for some interact interview. They were so serious it threw me off guard. And after the whole thing, i some what felt my whole self esteem take a huge dip. Sighs. I ought to go for more of such interviews so that i can get used to it when i go for job interviews in future.
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10:39 PM
Saturday, August 25
He sauntered into the lecture hall lazily, with his back pack carelessly slung over his right shoulder. Deliberately refusing to look at anyone in the eye and ignoring all greetings extended to him, he carefully made his way to his usual seat. Despite his apparent rudeness, he knew that none of them took offence. After all, they were probably used to his show of aloofness. More importantly, it was him. For as long as he knew, no one got or could stay angry with him. He was all too aware of his god given ability to manipulate other’s feelings and had no qualms about putting them into good use at the right time. As he neared his area of hibernation (lecture time is sleeping time), he noticed a paper fluttering down to the floor. It came from the girl in front.
"Hey!" He called out and bent down instinctively to pick up the fallen object. It was a photograph with a vaguely familiar background. He wondered where he had seen it before. When she gave no sign of having heard him, he sighed and gingerly reached out to tap her on the back.
"Here, you dropped this," he said and stretched out his arm.
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1:14 PM
My Social Life in Hogwarts!
Lots of people like you, very few don't. You are nice, understanding, and don't judge people until you know them. You treat everyone fairly and make friends with practically everyone. You are very smart and cunning. You love to laugh. You have many admirers, but don't take notice.
Harry: He is in love with you, but doesn't know what to do. He's not sure if he should ask you out. He gets jealous very easily and doesn't understand how you can be nice to the Slytherins, specifically Malfoy. He wants to be the man of your dreams and hopes that you like him more than a friend.
Ron: Loves you as a friend and nothing more. He thanks you profusely for getting him and Hermione together and like Harry, he doesn't understand how you can be so nice to everyone.
Hermione: She thinks of you as her best gal pal and thanks you for getting her and Ron together. She's glad that you take your studies seriously and thinks you are great. She knows you treat people equally and respects your decisions.
Ginny: She doesn't like you because Harry loves you. She thinks you are great, but is really jealous of you. You two have grown distant, but you have hardly noticed with all the friends you have. Maybe one day you two will be friends again?
Neville: Has a little crush on you because you are the one who helps him with his schoolwork.
Fred and George: They think you are the best person in the world. You always come up with great pranks and laugh at their jokes. They love you and hope that you will always be there for a good prank.
Oliver Wood: Had a crush on you, but the age difference didn't work out right. He knows that you only love him as a friend and accepts it. He still has a crush on you, but has moved on. And that's okay with you.Cedric Diggory: He thinks you're a good person who cares about everyone. You were the one who introduced him to Cho. He's glad you did and left this world with you as one of him close friends.
Cho Chang: She is your actual bestfriend and thanks you for getting her and Cedric together. You are always there for her when she's crying about missing Cedric, and she appreciates it. You two are like sisters and she's grateful that you're her friend.
Lavender Brown: Thinks you are really nice, but doesn't like you because everyone likes you.
Draco Malfoy: He is also in love with you, like Potter. Him and Harry often fight for your affections. Is easily jealous, like Harry, and cares about you very much. He hopes that in the end you and him will be together. You are the only girl he loves and hopes you feel the same. He constantly worries about your safety and would give up everything for you.
Pansy: Hates you. Enough said.
Crabbe and Goyle: Have little crushes on you, but know that Draco would pummel them.
Dumbledore: Thinks you are a great person. Wishes you luck on choosing between Harry and Draco. He knows that you'll be a very good skilled witch in the future.
McGonagall: Also thinks you are a great student who has amazing skills, but worries that it might be very stressful to be as hardworking as you.
Hagrid: You are his favorite girl student because you didn't give up his class and always help him with the creatures. The creatures in the forbidden forest love you too. Odd huh?
Snape: He thinks you are an excellent student, doesn't like or dislike you. He knows you'd end up being a great witch.
Voldemort: Wants you to join him and hopes that you will end up with Malfoy. If you pick Harry, he plans to kill you instead of recruiting you.
Reputation: Girl who likes Draco and Harry.
Gosh this is tremendously funny. And pretty much untrue too, the very smart and cunning and many admirers part. Ah...but i do like the malfoy part though. It sounds so sweet! If only if only something like that really happens... Awwww. But then again, this sort of stuffs usually only happen in stories or movies right? Still, one can always dream...
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11:32 AM
Thursday, August 23
Her eyes scanned across the entire lecture hall and focused on the spot where she was so used to seeing him. There was nobody in that seat. She lowered her gaze, disappointed. The lecture hall was buzzing with activity. Over in a corner, a group of guys were teasing this poor oversized girl about the new bag she was carrying. Another group of rowdy guys were kicking a ball of crushed paper around, oblivious to the number of scowls people gave when they bumped against them. April sighed softly as she took slow heavy steps towards her usual seat. She was glad that she was able to move about unnoticed. Suddenly, she felt a warm hand press down gently on the small of her back and the voice she heard was so achingly familiar that she felt giddy with happiness. “Here, you dropped this.” A hand held out a photograph. Immediately, April’s eyes widened with panic and she let out a gasp.
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9:04 PM
Okay, first I must blog about what happened on Munyee’s birthday. Things didn’t at all turn out anywhere near I expected and I realized that I miss them a lot. In fact, I can still remember almost every single detail vividly, perhaps showing how much I value those times I shared with them, indulging in their company, laughing and cam-whoring with them.
I was the first to turn up as I recall, although zhenling(zhenlong bao) was only a minute or two after me. At first we really had nothing to do and all we did were to sit around and chat a bit and play this game thingy which munyee’s bro took over in a while’s time. Later on we met xin hui down at the bus stop and she was with her bf! No doubt we must have looked ridiculous when we practically ran to meet them both. I felt like I was a mad woman, with my hair flying all over my face and those loud flip flop sounds I made when I ran. There was a moment of awkward silence before xh decided to intro us all to him. It must have surprised her to see us all down cos I believe she actually meant for munyee to go down alone.
After the intro xh told us to go up ourselves, and we did. Well, rather reluctantly, but we eventually did go up after hiding at the staircase landing for some time to jump out and scare her. Except that our plan failed of course. She didn’t even go by there at all! So our efforts went down the drain. Xh came up again after what seemed like a long long while. We watched a bit of Simpsons before the “witching hour” came. Two cakes were carried out and placed on the dining table. Meanwhile, I was amusing myself by playing with the dried ice. Just at the right moment, jiehui turned up. Record time she took to bath, she commented. We sang the birthday song and gave her the presents.
I know that I shouldn’t feel that way but I can’t help it. At that point I was really rather envious of her. The fact that she had her friends with her on her birthday, celebrating it with her and singing the birthday song to her. I don’t ever recall my friends singing it to me before, maybe except for the very one time in sec 4 where my class sang it to me. Neither do I remember having a birthday cake which were bought by friends. Even those class cakes which were bought for those born in that certain month I never did get to enjoy, perhaps due to bad timing, or simply because others had forgotten that I was born in that certain month. None of my birthdays actually seemed to be worth remembering…and I never really got what I wanted badly for my birthday either. Nothing fancy truly, but I just wished that others would take a little of their time, and write me a birthday letter? I don’t want any presents, a letter alone would be the best present ever, something which I could keep as a memory. Sadly, no one has actually bothered to do so, except for maybe zhenling’s letter this year J Ah, and surprises. I love them so. Unfortunately, they’re just not meant to be? Surprises are meant for people who are much more worth it than me. Some one important enough for them to actually rack their brains to make them happy. Argh, im blabbering. Okok, anyways, I decided that I shall just do what im missing out to others (eg give surprises!) so that at least I’ll get the joy of seeing others happy. As its stated, it better to give than to receive :P
Ah, im off the track again. Back to what happened. We continued watching the Simpsons. Despite me feeling really sleepy, I still thought the movie was pretty amusing. Next up was a scary midnight movie call “Fragile”. I was surprised that I managed to keep myself awake through out most of the entire movie. We later dedicated the night to Charlotte, the mechanical girl. After we retired to the room we cam-whorred!! Took loads of photos and we had fun with the posing. The sleeping part was terrible though. Well, it was have been a nice night if not for the fact that the blanket was pulled off me countless number of times in the night and I was practically freezing to death. I learnt that when you are freezing cold, the night seemed really long. But time still passed and morning came and went.
Afternoon I watched Rush Hour 3. And then went home a tired but happy girl. Happy at having met my friends. Happy at having been with them again.
Okay now back to the present times. On Saturday we went for the fp program. The kids were simply adorable and full of energy, although I wonder what kids these days are actually thinking in that warped little brain of theirs. I think this girl R got rather attached to me and kept sticking to my side. A while later she requested that I give her a piggy ride around the room. She wanted me to bring her to Monster, which was apparently this NJ guy called Ernest if I didn’t recall wrongly. I did as she asked for and when she saw him, she practically went wild. She took his hands and ran round him in circles, swinging him until I think he got giddy? Hmmm, who wouldn’t? Then later on when we were up in the playground thingy she actually took my hand and his and tried to make us hold hands! I was totally amused by it all when she started humming “teng teng teng teng”- the “marriage tune”. Gosh, and she didn’t only do it once. She tried to do so a few times in all. Kids nowadays, I find it hard to decipher what exactly are they thinking of. I wonder if I would do that when I was young. Probably not.
And then later another girl H came to stick with me. We went at this section where we could either move up or down. The convo went like this. Me: so where do you guys wanna go next? Up or down? H: Up! R: Down! Me: (looks at H)you want to go up, (looks at R)you want to go down…but there’s only one me…so..should I go up or down? H: Up! R: Down! Me: silence H: okay down! R: No UP! H: down R: up! H: up… R: no down! Me: okay okay, why dun you two make friends? H: stares at me shyly R: No! I don’t want, we go up! And then at the point, H had to go off. Food for thought: Why doesn’t R want to make friends with H? Why doesn’t she agree with H at all?
LOL.
Anyway, this week has been a slack week. I don’t recall touching any hw at all sighs. Ooh, and now I shall test my writing skills. Rusty already I suppose.
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8:02 PM
Thursday, August 9
Ahh, today i just went to pool with my mom, dad and sis. After abstinence for 4 months! At first the person refused to let us enter. She said that my sister was underage and should the officers come to check, they would denitely be fined a hefty sum of money. Thankfully, other players managed to persuade her.
And then the game started, with both me and my mom playing like noobs(which we are) and my dad was easily and effortlessly shooting balls into practically any hole. I got rather irritated with my dad for correcting my posture all the time and he got irritated at me being irritated. But later it got fun again. My dad obviously won the 14 ball game. I only shot in ONE measly ball and he finished all 8 balls. BUT me and my mom both won the 9 ball game MUAHAHA. Sounds pro right? Unfortunately, the rule of the 9 ball game goes this way: Whoever hits in the last ball wins. Aaaaaannd....my dad hit in 8 balls, me the last one...thus i WON. hahahaha. Same applies to my mom. Well, at least we can say that we won Something again my dad.
Later I'll be going to Munyee's house cos tmr is her birthday. Somehow i feel a little apprehensive. I dunno why. Damn. Why do i even think like that Urgh!
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7:44 PM
Monday, August 6
yucks, hw hw hw, datelines datelines datelines... Life sucks...
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10:31 PM
Sunday, August 5
Ah wells, i've just been scanning through my friend's blogs and i'm wondering: Why do ppl keep posting emo stuffs? After reading them I myself is starting to become affected by them and the sense of inferiority and lack of meaning in life has suddenly become more evident. When i read those blogs, anonymous characters named by my frens would be swiftly associated with myself, particularly when it has to do with something negative.
I keep thinking that the person whom they are talking about must be me, and i must have not done enough to spare a thought for others, being so visibly self centred and mean. Sometimes i just feel like im such an irksome person.
There are just so many dissatisfactions i have in life and without further ado i shall simply list them out: 1)Everyone around seems to have some purpose or passion in life, be it sports or musical stuffs...i don't 2)Practically everyone i know are having some kind of leadership roles: EXCO, subject reps...etc...I don't 3)Almost everyone has something they are good at, etc musically inclined, artistic, sporty, academically inclined....but me? i've none. 4)I wish i could have been better at time management 5)i think that im drifting further and further away from my friends..
Okay actually come to think of it, there are still other stuffs that i should be glad of: 1)I have a generally nice and funny family. They help to keep me in a light hearted mood most of the time when im with them. Its only when im alone and darkness falls that emo-ness sets in, invading every part of my soul.
2)I still have great friends in NJ. They are seriously Nice and caring and some are totally motherly! Even tho i kena scolded by them while eating fried stuffs despite my sore throat, i still cant help but feel Xin Wei and touched that they even care for my well being and health.
3)I have nice teachers who want us to improve. While this is certain when you see the amount of work they give us and the number of consolidation lessons we have.
4)Haha, this is superficial but at least i don't look hideous. Granted, there'd be no second glance cast but no one would go out of the way just to avoid looking at me. So for that alone i should be grateful. Tho i wonder how long this situation will last before i grow more deformed:P
5)While i got kicked outta HC, at least i managed to enter NJ...
6)For now i believe that im rather healthy:D
Hmmm, actually i quite like my life after all.
LOL.
omg im watching this documentary on Qin shi huang. Omg its damn funny when he went crazy. Standing in the sea and shooting arrows at nothing in particular, yelling after every shot that he had just shot the enemy. And his ministers stood behind, applauding his nonsensical shootings.
Ah. I just remembered my main motive for coming online. Its to finish up my pw reflections. okay i'll scoot to do it now.
I feel that my mood has been relatively lifted...Whee
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7:55 PM
The Princess
Name:Abeline/Shinzo Abe/Maggie/abalone/da mee/xiao mee/abby/Xiao bao/Si mao
age:17! No longer sweet 16:(
sch:NJC
horoscope:Aries!
