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Sunday, August 5

Ah wells, i've just been scanning through my friend's blogs and i'm wondering: Why do ppl keep posting emo stuffs? After reading them I myself is starting to become affected by them and the sense of inferiority and lack of meaning in life has suddenly become more evident. When i read those blogs, anonymous characters named by my frens would be swiftly associated with myself, particularly when it has to do with something negative.


I keep thinking that the person whom they are talking about must be me, and i must have not done enough to spare a thought for others, being so visibly self centred and mean. Sometimes i just feel like im such an irksome person.



There are just so many dissatisfactions i have in life and without further ado i shall simply list them out:
1)Everyone around seems to have some purpose or passion in life, be it sports or musical stuffs...i don't
2)Practically everyone i know are having some kind of leadership roles: EXCO, subject reps...etc...I don't
3)Almost everyone has something they are good at, etc musically inclined, artistic, sporty, academically inclined....but me? i've none.
4)I wish i could have been better at time management
5)i think that im drifting further and further away from my friends..



Okay actually come to think of it, there are still other stuffs that i should be glad of:
1)I have a generally nice and funny family. They help to keep me in a light hearted mood most of the time when im with them. Its only when im alone and darkness falls that emo-ness sets in, invading every part of my soul.

2)I still have great friends in NJ. They are seriously Nice and caring and some are totally motherly! Even tho i kena scolded by them while eating fried stuffs despite my sore throat, i still cant help but feel Xin Wei and touched that they even care for my well being and health.

3)I have nice teachers who want us to improve. While this is certain when you see the amount of work they give us and the number of consolidation lessons we have.

4)Haha, this is superficial but at least i don't look hideous. Granted, there'd be no second glance cast but no one would go out of the way just to avoid looking at me. So for that alone i should be grateful. Tho i wonder how long this situation will last before i grow more deformed:P

5)While i got kicked outta HC, at least i managed to enter NJ...

6)For now i believe that im rather healthy:D


Hmmm, actually i quite like my life after all.


LOL.



omg im watching this documentary on Qin shi huang. Omg its damn funny when he went crazy. Standing in the sea and shooting arrows at nothing in particular, yelling after every shot that he had just shot the enemy. And his ministers stood behind, applauding his nonsensical shootings.


Ah. I just remembered my main motive for coming online. Its to finish up my pw reflections. okay i'll scoot to do it now.



I feel that my mood has been relatively lifted...Whee

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