yay! hoorah! oral finally over. today i can gloat over the fact that my oral is over when half my classmate's oral isn't over yet. i wonder whats the topic for them. is it more difficult? Ah well.
Today in school i had a sad time cos i failed my maths miserably. mot really my fault yet completely my fault. its my fault because i didnt really listen in class last term and thats why i didnt do well. plus the additional fact tt i completely didnt do my maths homework. when i did, i passed up rubbish. but on the other hand, its not my fault because i started to listen in class this term and i did my work this term. so there. not one hundred percent my fault as you can see.
but nevermind, i heard its not graded. i certainly hope so. during lit i had to write and write and write non stop. it was really tiring as mrs tian seems to be shooting words from her mouth. i can hardly catch wad she is saying, much less write them down. when i finish one sentence she is already a few sentences ahead. had a really tough time mann. but nevertheless, i tried my best to squeeze everything i could remember onto my book. at the end of lit lesson, my arm really ached like hell. my advice is that we lit students bring a tape recorder and record down everything mrs tian says. then we go home, listen and copy everything at a leisurely pace. wouldnt that be nice?(sings)
during history lesson just now, mrs tan didnt come. so we had this relief teacher who was once from st nicks. turns out that she is xiao tong's sister (i think). plus we found out that she was from RJC. from wad she says, rjc doesnt sound very nice. i had every intention to enter rjc(if i can but i highly doubt so after maths test) but now, (even if i can make it) it doesnt really seem like a very good choice. considering the fact that the relief teacher only joined rjc because of the uniform. and the ppl there seems mean. they played a joke on this poor fat girl by voting for her to take part in the prom queen peagant! oh my gosh! wouldnt that hurt her self esteem so much? i definitely dun wanna go to a school where everybody laughs at me and i have to change myself to fit the "normal" students' lifestyle in order to "fit" into the crowd. i'd rather just be myself. even though that'd be a tad bit too weird.
Why am i even thinking of jc stuffs right now? my Os are not even over yet. i haven even secured a single A1. hope that my oral can get a distinction. at least that can help to give me a certain amount of hope and confidence in myself. shows that i can talk and converse in chinese! haha. but then oral is not completely over yet. there's still the english oral to face next year. huifang suggests that i can start practising for it now. ah well, maybe, maybe not. my tuition teacher says that she is very worried for me cos at this stage my chinese vocab should be quite strong and i shouldnt have so many words which i dunno how to write. she got me worried too. i guess im too proud of myself or sth but i've always thought that you can just pick up the book one week before chinese O lev and study and then you'll get an A1 in chinese. how wrong i am, i suppose.
When u are at the end of the road dont look back. it'll get you no where. walk on.
huifang just asked about my nick. "btw if we reach the end of a road wont we die if we continue walking?" ya, i've never considered that actually. it all just sort of came out as i was typing and i didnt pause a moment to even think about it. i guess its true. maybe instead of forcing yourself to go on, one could just have the courage to turn back and face the music or sth. "you're encouraging ppl to die (no offence)"huifang states. hmmmm....come to think of it, it really sounds as if i was trying to say, if you come to a time where you have no solution, just get off the path, its the best way out. but it could mean other things too. like u can make a new path yourself. you do not necessarily have to follow the path given to you and turning back wont exactly help much. you're still on the same path. and....i dunno..its too philosophical for me to explain. its up to you to decide. its like those kinda shows that let you guess in the end, did this person choose him or the other person. something like that. even though you may not like the ending, it at least gives you space to think and consider the possibilities of the story. but this isnt a story duh.
Anyway, samantha didnt come to school today. i seriously wonder why. i messaged her and she doesnt reply. is she so sick she cant get out of her bed? poor her. (or maybe she just cant be bothered to reply? cos her head hurts too much or sth...or she is too busy spending time in the toilet, got stomach ache or sth) well, she refuses to say anything else, so i'll have to guess. maybe she is making use of this chance to practise oral? no, i shant doubt her. she's my fren! haha...i wonder if she will be going for kidsread tomorrow. wad if she's so sick she cant come? well, at least there's huifang to accompany me. dun even know if jeridyn will go,cos she also got oral. jeridyn didnt come for lib yesterday, i remember. i wonder why and where she was at? dun tell me she also sick? how come like everyone sick at this time? just now in the afternoon soh teng came to my class, she was also down with flu, sore throat i think. poor thing. her oral is on mon or tues some more.
anyway, gtg...my dad wants to play mah jong. he loves playing that game. its not real mah jong, more like clearing the same of a kind. haha.
Ps...good luck to all those who haven had their oral!
Pss....dun worry, it aint really that hard....can be a fun experience.
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The Princess
Name:Abeline/Shinzo Abe/Maggie/abalone/da mee/xiao mee/abby/Xiao bao/Si mao
age:17! No longer sweet 16:(
sch:NJC
horoscope:Aries!
